27dec2009...

2day I went to my cousin there dye my hair n change my hair style...I sat there 2 hours more...I sat till wanna slp...Tis is my 1st time to dye my hair...I look diferrent after dye hair....Some of my friend said i look young after dye hair..Some of them say nice but sure some of them say i'm become noty..hehe...but however I still like it..

31dec2009..

I plan to hang out wid friends 2day but all hv work and out wid bf...so finally I go shopping wid cousin n mum at qb...I bought a MANGO brand cloth....After that we eating...We shopping till around 8pm we took bus to time square...Begining we tot tat no any function....Mum still said I lie them come..haiz..==....but after have dance buy kindergarden student n singing....We sat there around 3 hours...I feel bored n wanna bec home but cousin said wan to countdown n c fireworks...so we continue waiting...On 12am we countdown n c fireworks there...There r nt many ppl coz mayb no1 knw there hv countdown but still have a jolly time...At the end I pass my new year eve wid my cousin n mum at time square shopping mall...

sad day...

2day is a sad day...morning i went to starwalk wid my k jie...after tat we went to oriental singing...I tot tis is a day tat gv us let off our stress n sadness but how to knw i not let off my stress n sadness...I feel vry bored n headache n moody....After finish singing I quarrel wid my k jie...I dono y we both will quarrel oso....I not purposely don wan answer u when cross the road..I reali din haerd u called me..I knw tat time u r angry..sry..I d avoid to quarrel wid her coz I feel tat we wan to be sister is a vry hard thg...On tat moment I feel vry sad..reali wan to cried out...I don hope we bcos a small matter quarrel...Anyway sory pigy jie....hope u hv c tis blog...waiting ur reply...

11.12.09..

2day is the 1st day bec to badminton...I'm so await to play badminton but not a fun day...Is a day tat I feel moody...1st time no mood to play it...What is the reason??
I tink i nonid to say out...After that I'm rushing home bcoz I promis my aunt them go to pesta...I'm dislike to go there coz a lot of malay ppl but I feel tat I reali nid to relax myself...cant owas stay at home..so i juz follow them...Ntg to do at there..Juz walk walk...But the happy thg is I suddenly receive a msg...I reali not tink that is him...So I juz be normal mood to took out my hp n c...Unexpected is him...he reali send me msg...I feel happy when receive his msg...Finally he msg me 1st...He told me he was sick...when I heard it I reali dono wat to said...I just feel sad but I don wan to told him...I juz can sad in my heart...I know we r imposible...but I still feel sad when heard him sick...I reali wory of him..care of him..I not msg him few days d...I not msg him not mean I 4get him..I do tat just wan try to control myself to put him down...I told myself I must do it...But I still vry miss him...When I'm free I will tinking of him...He is the 1 tat make me cant 4get...What I say now oso no use d...I just hope tat he will happy owas...I hope that our friendship can long lasting...mayb I wont at penang after result come out..I hope that he still will remember me when I'm going to Uni study....Dono y I feel tat I reali will treat him good even no tat we r imposible...I reali will remember him til the end of my life..Although I have bf d I oso will remember him..

12月10日09年...

今天是我们中六同学的聚会..
很难得的一天也是最难忘的一天..
有可能这是我们最后一次一起出来了...
中六毕业了..
在等待成绩的期间每个人都忙着打工赚钱了...
很快就这样过了一年半...
多么想念在MBS的生涯...
无可否认在这短短的时间了发生了不少的事情..
但现在全都是回忆了...

finally....

Finally STPM was finished....I'm so happy can relax n enjoy d...Half year time reali pass so fast...Last year I still tell myself still nid to study half year form6.. reali hate to study....but 2day is the last day tat I wear school uniform....I was happy tat can end my form6 life but I vry miss my form5 & form6 friend so much....aspesially those r console me..accompany me..gv me support when i'm down...I reali feel happy tat I hv a lot friend in MBS..Even we r graduate but hope tat our friendship will 4ever....

选择...

每个人都有自己的选择...
我们可以选择接受当然也可以选择拒绝..
曾经的我拒绝过别人......
现在却被人拒绝...
我了解拒绝别人的心...
我也体会到被拒的感受...
其实是一样的道理...
拒绝人的时候对自己说"没感觉怎么接受呢!!"
现在别人也是会这样想的...
还是一句话勉强的爱情是得不到幸福的...
就这句话我会尊重别人的选择...
能和心爱的人在一起就要懂得好好珍惜..
像我没机会的就只好祝福他们幸福快乐...
即使无缘在一起...
看到他快乐我也快乐了...
做不了情侣我们还可以做好朋友...
我想做朋友总比做情侣好吧??
希望我们的友谊能够永固...

new life.....

2day is my new life....
I muz try to life without any person accompany...
I tink tis is my challenge...
challenge my patient...
I will happy to enjoy my life...
I feel tat i reali change a lot...
I can calm down when i facing problem...
I can put down some1 by 1 days...
I reali can do it...
Izit I get hurt b4 d??
so oni change me till like tat???

ekon subject...

2mr exam ekon...I tot i was loving tis subject but dono y till last moment i still hate it...I feel tat it is hard n dificult for me...I cant remember wat i'm reading...I reali hate tis subject...It make me whole ppl tired n headache...
I just skop few chapter...I hope tat wat I read will come out...God pls rescues me...I d try my best to understand it....

他了解我吗!!

他...了解我有多深呢!!
我很想知道他到底了解我多深...
他了解我的心情吗??
他懂我在想什么吗??
我想..他一点都不了解我...
不了解我的心情..
不了解我的感受...
有时我真的很想告诉他实话...
可是却怕答案会伤到自己...
只好藏在心里...
却没想到更糟的是他只会开玩笑...
却没想到我的想法...
当时的我真的很想哭....

开始对他有感觉了...

时间一天一天的过...
认识他就越来越深了...
我也开始慢慢地觉得自己对他产生感觉了...
那种感觉真的很熟悉...
我真的不想有那种感觉...
可是我觉得真的很难控制...
即使不去特地想他,但脑海里还是有他..
我怕这只是一时的感觉..
一个代替品而已...
所以只好不要去想他...
可是我这样做,我觉得我更想他..
更怕失去他...
对他的感觉真的来自心灵上...
他真的对我那么重要吗??
外表是说不在乎他..
对他没感觉...
不想理会他...
可是内心却骗不了自己....
对他是多么的在乎..
多么的需要他...
我想只有我自己才懂...
我不想告诉任何人...
不想任何人知道...
我真的喜欢上他了!!!

感觉...

讲起感觉...到底什么是感觉??
感觉这两个字很熟悉..
很多人都很喜欢说..
但真正的意思是什么呢!!
我想没有人真正的去了解...
很多人很喜欢说我对他/她有感觉了..
就这样产生了一见钟情...
感觉是不能控制的...
喜欢一个人是一时的感觉还是真正的感觉呢!!
答案可以是两个...
一时的感觉是不能长久的...
真正的感觉才能长久...
对我而言:我也喜欢说感觉这两个字..
但现在我才明白它不可随便乱用...
它会让我们盲目的爱上一个人...
它也会让一个人受伤..
无可否认的它也会让一个人幸福开心..
对与我自己我对他有感觉吗??
其实我也不懂..
也不想去知道...
单方有感觉也是没结果的...
选择顺其自然还是最好的...

'如果'...

世上有一种果叫"如果"
它不用开花也能结果
因为每一件事过去之后
人就会说如果没有发生多好
"好好珍惜在乎你的人!
不要等失去时才说如果!!

9November2009....

朋友是互相体谅..互相照顾..互相迁就...朋友不是说谁抢走了谁..这次是第二次听到同样的话了..我讨厌这句话..我对每个朋友都是平等的..除了你本身有问题才导致我对你冷淡...做错了事就要懂得悔改..不要只会责怪别人..只会责怪别人不了解你..那你又了解别人有多深呢!!每当说话时要先三思而后行...不是说只是说说而已...那就推卸责任了...话一说就不能收回了..即使事情过去了怎样都好都会留下疤痕了...要维持一段真正的友情真的不容易...不管是友情或是爱情都需要两方面来维持...我相信单方面的付出与迁就是维持不了多久的..人是有忍耐度的...一个人当忍耐度超过极限时..它就会象火山一样爆发...这是一个失败的考验..但它给了我很多的启事..让我从中体会到了不少的东西..让我成长...

He..(9November2009)

I dono how he get my MSn email..He add me at MSN..Start I dono who is him...So everyday I just wait him to on9 to ask him who is he..I still remember tat hv 1 nite I msn him ask him "harlo can I knw who r u"..On tat time he answer me "u say harlo but u dono who am I" I feel very weird y kenot say harlo even dono him..After few minutes I oni know he is 1 of our sch guy..He told me who is he but i still blur n steam..so I take out school magazine and find it ..(I tink tat time he oso dono me lo,haha)..At last he is a 5 Akaun1 student..I feel touch is bcos he is a guy appear when I'm down and sad..At tat moment he reali gv me a lot of console..Reali thx to him..Suddenly feel tat hv a friend so care of me....He told me that his friend say he is a good guy....I know him just few week ago so on beginning I'm not sure wat kind of ppl he are...but now I feel tat what his friend say is true..He reali is a good guy...He willing to help me when I need(but everytime I oso paiseh 1..hoho)....At here I wan to thx him 1st for everyday willing to sms accompany me ..I'm a gal tat not like to using ppl..Morning he say I no friend oni find him..At tat moment I feel vry hurt and sad...I reali from a happy mood bcome moody..I wan to tell him tat I'm not no friend oni find him..Everyday I will msg him no matter I'm busy,free or have friend around me...On the other hand I oso wan to take a chance to say sory to him...Everytime I reali no haert to make him sad and make him gek sim..sometime just kidding wid him(^^)..On the addition,What he promis he reali will do it..but he say I din do wat I promis..Actuly What I promis him I oso will do it..I still remember he say if I happy he oso will happy le..This sentenses actualy is wat I wan to tell him too..At last,I hope that he will happy always..I will remember him until the end of my life...^^

FARLIM MCd...(7November2009)

MCD is a nice place for every1 to having fast food..
It is a place for every1 to enjoy their breakfast,lunch n dinner..
They have a good facilities such as good environment,air condition and so on..
As a student,they like to go there do revision oso ..
For me I oso will chose there to do revision more thn other place..
But start 2day I hate there so much..
their service is become bad...
they do not say cannot do any revision o study at there..
so I'm going there to do my revisoin wid friend but get halau by 1 of their manager...so unlucky..make me no mood to study after tat..
Their attitude make us disappointed..
He is a manager but he no manners at all...he dono how to treat customer well...He just will ask us to consider other ppl...Ya he can do that but pls use softly volunm la...He do so just will damage MCd name and fame oni..Who will go a place tat have a bad services...

我到底做错了吗??

我这样做到底有错吗???昨晚不能睡...到底在想些什么呢!!
心里有点内疚和伤心...其实一开始我就不应该这样做了...
我真的做错了...大错特错的还是我...对不起!!

5P1 gathering at little cottage...10月30日

两年前我们就毕业了..每个人都有自己的前途和梦想...每年我们都有聚会..今天又是我们聚会的日子...大多数的朋友都出席...对我们来说这是个重大的日子...即使我们很久没联络没见面但还是向以前一样...有我们就有欢笑声...把它当成我们的天堂...有我们没他人...享受我们的晚餐

人...

为何人总是那么的不承认自己所说或所做的事情...
只会顾及自己的感受...
却伤害别人的自尊..
当喜欢一个人时,都会想尽办法去拥有他/她...
冷淡时却什么话都能说...
人真的是冷血的吗??
我讨厌甜言蜜语..
讨厌那些只顾及自己感受的人...
讨厌对我虚伪的人...
讨厌利用我的人..
讨厌出卖我的人....
和讨厌不能接受别人道歉的人...

Pn.Geetha...

Who is she??
She is our muet teacher...
She is a great teacher to me...
She is teacher who owas take care of me...
She is a teacher tat i like to bake cake let her try...
She owas gv me support when i nid...
She will encourage me to do wat i wan...for example:open a bakery shop in future..
She seem like my god mother...
A lot of my friend oso say tat she is my god mother...
She reali vry take care n love dearly of me...
I will not 4get u,teacher...
I will rmb u in my deep heart...
I will let u knw whn i'm open bakery shop in future...
Thank you very much,teacher
I Love U teacher!!!

thank you, CIK REYWATHI

I'm the person who don like the ekonomi subject so much...
I tot tat tis subject is dificult to study n learn...
I hate it since last year...coz i dono wat the teacher teaching bout..
But tis years she is teaching us...
She put a lot of effort on us....
So i wont make her disappointed...
I will love the subject..
I will score when STPM...
She oso is our form teacher...
She reali reali is a nice teacher...
She will help us solve the problem tat we face...
So..at last..i'm here to thxs her...
Thxs her caring n expending....

轻松..

终于考完必须背的科目了...
超开心的..熬了几天的夜..
终于可以休息了...
可以轻松一下..
休息休息脑袋...
可是星期一又要开始温习了...
真正开始准备STPM了...

27/10 他的出现与离开...

事情隐瞒快要一个月了..今天,我终于知道了事情的真相..要谢谢的人还是他...是他,我才知道事情的来龙去脉..不然,至今我还是不知道这回事...不是因为你导致我们没朋友做的,而这是我自己的选择...你不要在责怪自己和内疚了...你真的帮了我很多..谢谢你!!
"他"到底是个怎样的人呢??为何他会这样对我??难道之前对我的好对我的关心只是装出来还是表面工夫而已吗??你告诉我..等我考试后会给我答案..可是答案还未给,你就这样了...你没有站在别人的立场想..顾及别人的感受吗??这样做只会伤到别人...每给人都会拒绝或被拒绝的一次..不喜欢就 坦然面对,而不是选择静静的或是逃避的..谢谢你的出现..成为我几个月的朋友..我想我们的友情在此刮上句号..我这么做不是因为得不到而变成恨怨而是觉得你不负责任..
我想她才是属于你的..才是你想要的..才适合你的..我只好选择让步...最后祝你幸福快乐...
没有你陪伴的日子,我会好好的过..过着属于自己的生活...
每个人都是一样的..都有感受..我想如果你是我的话,你的心情会象我现在的心情吧!!事情过去就让它过去好了..我也会尊重你的决定...现在只想让你知道..当我们面对每件事时..我门都必须勇敢面对..而不是逃避...选择逃避只会让事情更糟..更伤所爱你的人...

头痛...

头真的真的很痛..真的快要忍不住了...明天又要考PP2了..这是我最喜欢的一科也是最伤脑筋的一科...实在是太多的东西要背..现在的心情真的无法形容..每次遇到这科时..我都很紧张很怕..整个人都很累...我准备好了吗???其实之前我都把它读完了..可是心里总是觉得好象很多东西都还没读...都没进脑的..真的很想快点明天...把所读的东西抛出来...让我的头脑休息...

二姐和我...

我们俩都必须考STPM..我跟她可说是同类型的..每次都是临时抱佛脚...不能预先做准备...这是一个习惯吗??还是个借口呢??我们不该这样吧!!这个考试对我们来说很重要..我门必须为我们的前途着想..我们必须一起加油..给予对方鼓励...一起往前拼吧!!我相信我们能做到...能考取我们想要的成绩...

考试...

STPM还剩下27天就到了...可说我俩哥成绩都很好..很聪明...而我却跟他们相差得很远...不是因为我不爱读书而是觉得自己不是读书生...解答能力比别人差...他们只需读一两次而我必须从复又从复的...就因为这样,开始讨厌读书..有时还觉得读了这么多成绩还是一样的不好....其实是我自己读书方式不对还是什么??我知道读书对我们来说很重要..但这样下去也不是办法...只会让自己更压力...我想我必须改变我的读书方式...加油吧!!

妈妈..

我来自单身家庭..从小爸爸就没照顾我们..我们和妈相依畏命...妈妈为了我们付出了不少..从年轻拼到现在..她常说我们的生命比她的生命更重要...为了我们,她整身痛...前天她人不舒服加上脚痛...痛得忍不住..只好哥哥载她去看医生...医生说她超劳过度..她担心将来不能走..即使开刀也不保证能痊愈..放学回到家..听到妈妈这样告诉我..其实看起来我象似不理不睬...但是有谁了解我心情..懂我心情在想什么...看到妈妈那样痛其实我心也很痛....我不能做什么..我只能求佛保佑..有时我会大声和她说话..但真正来说我是很爱她的....昨天晚上..哥哥载她去问神..说没事..听到后..我的心也定了下来..也看到妈妈的笑容了...真的谢谢佛的保佑...妈妈..我爱你!!

今年的生日...

每年的生日就和家人度过或是邀请朋友来家庆祝..可是今年的生日有点特别..生日前夕和一些比较要好的朋友到火锅之家庆祝...所有被邀请的朋友都出席..礼物对我来说不重要,重要的是每个都有出席..我就觉得很开心了...但他们没有让我失望..首先谢谢姐夫..即使工作没空都亲自为我做了一个蛋糕..真的谢谢..很好吃哦..谢谢"他"即使要工作加上不舒服都出席我的生日...但很可惜的是没有和他合照..希望下次有机会..还有要谢谢姐姐们的礼物..谢谢所有抽空出席的朋友..谢谢你们的礼物..今年的生日是我最难忘的一年了...

梦想..

学做蛋糕是我的嗜好..
希望将来开间属于自己的蛋糕店...
喜欢搞创意的我..
想创造出各式各样的蛋糕..
跟人与众不同...
它就是我人生中最大的梦想...
加油!!

朋友..

朋友重要吗??友情能长久吗??还是短暂的..
在我的世界里..现在朋友对我来说算什么呢!!其实我也不懂...在我眼里,朋友真的有很多类型...利用派的,现实派的,虚伪派的..种种的不一样...当然也有好的一派...但是我觉得世界真的改变了..很多朋友都很现实..只是在利用对方..."需要时是宝,无需时是草"...很多朋友都是这样对我..对朋友好有用吗??不顾一切的帮他们有用吗??最后得到的是什么??只是自己伤心..又有谁安慰自己呢??以前我觉得友情最重要..可是现在我才知道这是一个错误的观念....但是也当然有好的朋友..他们在我需要时都会帮我..安慰我...谢谢你们..你们对我的好我会铭记在心....

珍惜..

在这个世界上,很多人都不懂得如何去珍惜身边所拥有的一切...只会一直的在要求..一直的在埋怨...一直的与别人做比较..当一个人一直的在要求与埋怨时,他就看不到,感觉不到身边的人所为他付出的一切,对他的好...人要懂得知足..只要懂得知足就会快乐...不管是友情,亲情或是爱情..我们都必须懂得珍惜..如我最喜欢告诉朋友的一句话"好好珍惜身边所拥有的一切,不要等失去了才想挽回,那时就后悔莫及了"...不是每样东西都能挽回..有些东西失去了就得失去..只要懂得珍惜就不会遗憾一生...

生病..

haiz...又生病了..最近一直不舒服...之前心有点问题...头痛..现在又喉咙痛..真的很糟..讨厌生病...整个人看起来很累..无精打采...现在只想好好休息...什么原因导致我生病呢??压力..不够睡眠..还是想太多,失眠...其实我想都是种种的原因导致我生病的...

谢谢老师..

pp1的成绩出炉了..这次不是很满意这张试卷的成绩...但蛮开心的..预想不到还能及格..因为这张试卷刚巧遇到哥哥的婚礼..忙着帮忙..却没有时间读..可是平时老师一直给我们quiz和练习..就因为这样..印象深刻了..现在才体会到"只要专心听课即使在家没温习也可以考到好成绩"这句话...最后还是要谢谢老师一直给予的教导...THANK YOU PN.TAN

给了朋友一个难忘的生日...

我认识他一年多了..只是在短短的一年多但我们的友情可说蛮坚固的..还记得第一天认识他的时候就被他shoot得很惨..简直就想拿他来打..哈哈..其实他真的是一位很不错的男生...他也是我第一位认识的男生..谢谢他之前一直的开导我..在我有心事时都会听我诉苦..给我意见..可称他为我知己吧...还记得他说的一句话.."我不喜欢做表面工夫的"..其实这句话真的很有意思..每个人都有自己的性格..他是属于比较内向的..不爱炫耀...在很多时候我都比较喜欢找他商量..so有什么新闻都会向他报道..哈哈..今天是他的生日..昨晚我亲手做了一粒蛋糕给他..可说是临时吧..因为现在在考试期间...晚上11点多才完成..只想给他一个惊喜...给他一个难忘的生日..让他开心..让他体会到其实身边还有很多的朋友..他不喜欢吃蛋糕可是这只是一个小小心意...其实友情可以维持可以长久..只是看我们如何的去看待...即使毕业后还是朋友..还可联络...希望我门的友情可以维持下去...

10月20日...

今天是我最后一天写blog的日子了..我必须停止一个月开电脑..这一个月是我必须真正为我STPM拼的时候..即使不太喜欢读书的我,都不会让我妈失望..我会尽我所能力考取好成绩...我想在我这19年里这次的考试是最重要的也是最难的..未来的前途就在于它手中...一个月的日子其实只是短短的30天..转瞬间就到了...

回忆...

6月27日是我门认识对方的第一天...在学校一年多了这一天才认识到你..这算是缘分吧!!谢谢上天让我有缘认识你,让我们成为朋友...那一段有你陪伴的日子,我真的觉得不再寂寞..你的关心与呵护让我惦记在心...你该是我异性朋友里最好的一位吧!!我想之前所有的一切现在都成为回忆了吧!!现在我门之间不懂发生了什么事..一时间改变得很快...从朋友变成陌生人似的....谁能告诉我到底是什么一回事吗??